I never get what I want. But life is never fair anyway

Hey there,
Just want to confess about my disappointment in my life this time.

Did you know that I never get what I really want in my life ever?
Especially when the things relate to other people. Where I don't use my own power to achieve it.
That is why I lose faith in people. When my desires involves other people, I'll automatically drop my expectation and rest assure. Calming myself down and pat myself on my shoulder, saying to myself 'Calm down and expect less. You won't get those anyway'

So yes..
It's only natural for me to be disappointed. Because I never put a high hopes on people.
So, when I don't get what I want, I won't sulk. Just suck it up and let it go. Because it's only natural for me to be treated that way.

And you, my friend, can you please grow up and stop thinking that the world revolves around you?
Please. I know you're in sadness right now. But just suck it up. It's not like it's not your fault anyway.
Plus, this is just a small matters. Why are you behaving that way? It kinda get annoying these days.
Maybe what natural to you is that you being treated like a princess all the time. Desired by people and you can have everything that you want just by saying it out.

I know, different people have a different capacity to hold stresses and stuff. I've tried to understand you for a long time. But I just can't anymore because it really get on my nerves -_-

I am very sorry. I was supposed to be the usual me, that one friend who will surrender to grant her friend's wishes, that one friend who'd leave all her works behind just to get to her depressed friends for some consoling session and stuff. But that was the old me.

The new me know about self worth. The new me point out exactly what she want, and she value herself more than everything. And won't feel guilty about it at all. Because I just love myself.
So, lets just suck things up adn get along with life.

Cheers!

#InLoveWithMyself
#IhatePeople
#NotaPeoplePleaserAnymore

back to december.

Well..after a few days, I am back, again.haha

The heartbreak?
I'm over it now. Maybe not completely 100% moved on yet, but at least, I am OK.
Things become normal between us.
But if you ask, yes. I still hope I can go back to December and change everything -_-
The regret though~hmmm

anyway, its a bz life lately. But here I am, taking time and do stuff very slow.
Please pardon my slow-ness.lol
But I hope I can do all my work perfectly!

Pray for me!

#bye

Not everyday is a day where you can run under the bright sky

Some other days, there are storm and all you can do is keep yourself inside.
Safe from the rain and storm.

I've tried my hardest to forget about that one person and eventually did.
It wasn't so hard anymore. But, now I feel lonely and empty inside,

Its sad when we no longer have that long conversation at night before sleep.
When you no longer concern towards my health and etc.
Sounds like a very selfish relationship?
Well, I am that demanding.

Dear future person,
Please remember this, I am a demanding person.lol

Got to find a distraction for myself very soon!

#movingonday## #causeIdontcareanymore #lulz

How to get a hold of everything all at once?

I am back. Assalamualaikum.

As the title said, I am facing that kind of problem right now.
What do you do when you're expected to be able to do (and excel) at everything?
Managing household, work, have a higher education and what about my personal life?
I hated it when someone tries to control me.

I can say that I was forced to pursue the life I have right now? I feel like a bad person to say that. But thats the truth. And as the time goes by, I started to actually liked my current life. Then someone have to come and set a boundary for me, limiting my steps and freedom.

Its kinda stressing me out and the situation did interrupt my daily life, emotionally and mentally.
I feel like I'm constantly being a jerk towards my friends. I am very sorry for the abnormal personalities that I showed these last few weeks. I really am sorry! Things just take a toll on me I supposed. I don't know how to deal with my current situation, I don't have a place to pour everything out and its suffocating. Someone is very mad at me for my jerky attitude. I just can't find myself apologizing again for the same thing that I did. I just hope he read this.

I actually noticed that when Im in this situation, I tend to push away and hurt the people that I favor the most. I don't know why, I just did. Instinct said that I don't want to hurt them? Well, maybe. But if you feel like I've pushed you away from my life, well, you're an important person to me.

Let e just isolate myself from everything again and do some self reflection to solve my problem.
I missed sitting in my dark room alone and think about life like what I usually did back then.
Its been so long since I left that habit. I should join my demon again I supposed.

I just hope that this problem will just pass and everything will turn to normal.
Insya'Allah...

Come back home. Baby come back home!

Assalamualaikum.

Yes, as usual. I am back after being on hiatus for several week (is it a month or a few month this time? I hope its not!). and yes I have a lot of stories in store.

I've been busy with this lil-oh-not-so-secret biz that I got myself involved in.
and busy with the interviews, busy with documents handling (for my mom's company), busy with the chores, busy managing the household, this and that. In a nutshell, my energy almost drain and left empty at the end of the day. But still, its worth it.

My families being worried too much about me going to a far place and started working.
What I can say is that, almost 90% of them encourage me to further my study. It is also the first time in my life that my family set a goal for me too! and I was kind of anticipated too! and I will apply to continue my study to satisfy everyone too! (too many 'too. oh well~)

Yes, it is the very first time that my family set a goal for me.
Before this, they never asked me to get straight A's in any exam. To nail anything or accomplish anything..it's kind of funny yet give me some new vibe when they finally asked me to do something.haha
ok..I know it is not funny.

Remember about my 'fear of flying' things that I mentioned in each and every one of my previous post?
Yeah right. I am scary shit of flying right now. I have a bit of fear before the MH370 cases because of the little incident occurred during the flight. Also probably because I tried to understand the mechanical of the plane, I studied aviation a bit, history of aviation and also I learnt about the construction material of the plane. I always imagine a weird stuff though. So I should probably stop my wild imagination.
Then, come the MH17 cases. Then some few other airlines cases too. I became terrified and scared to fly now! I should probably cancel the 'Willing to travel.' in my resume too.haha

Gaza.
The war in Gaza is getting worse. The only hope that is left is Allah the Almighty.
May HE give protection, strength, iman, patient and all the good thing to the people in Gaza, Amen.

Last but not least, my mother became so very hilarious this past few months(or years..or forever).
She said she didn't want me to work at a far away place. and thet she will treat me something that I can't decline if I stay here. 'If you want to work far away from Ranau, go and get marry fast. So that I didn't have to worry anything about you, Go get married!' (thats what she said when its translated from Dusun to English). I was like... shocked, loss of words and my mouth was slightly apart trying to find the right word and tried my very best to register her order. So I play along and asked her to find a candidate instead.

Mom can get so scary sometimes you know.

Lets keep the other story and go to sleep now k.
Good night! :D

Finally GRADUATED and Transformer: Age of Extinction. HAPPY RAMADHAN ^_^

Assalamualaikum....

well..since its been so long since my last update, I have to combine all the main topic into one sentences (refer: post title).

TRANSFORMER: AGE OF EXTINCTION

it's a one hell of a movie. 3 hours long. and its worth it!!!
OMG! I can actually watch it again 4-5 times. The movie was the best and fascinating. its simply wonderful.
I know its sounds like im exaggerating but IT IS worth the few ringgit malaysia and the 3 hours of your day.
I just Love the movie. Highly recommended *thumbs up*


GRADUATED.

There's these subject that have become my enemy since last semester and I repeat the paper.
It is even harder than my final year project (probably because I hate maths. Despite all the subject in my overall coursework are related to maths.lol), and I thought that I'm gonna lose to the subject again and unable to graduate from my Bachelor Degree. Fortunately, ALHAMDULILLAH, I have met my lecturer personally to asked for my grade, and yes, I passed it! Alhamdulillah once again, I can finally announce that I am going to GRADUATE from my 4 years long of Chemical Engineering course. and currently, I am jobless. lol

I was only left with a few option by madam besar a.k.a my mum.
After a lot of consideration and reflection made, I finally decided to take thing slowly and rest for a while. I mean, managing the household and such. It is actually tiring (physically, emotionally and mentally) but, this is a part of learning. Let's embrace it. (fyi, it is easier to do some Calculus calculation than managing the household. I warned you!)

and yes. It is sad thinking about finish studying and it comes to me that I am not going to go back to that place anymore. Even if I go back, it won't be the same anymore since I've said goodbye(s) to all my precious friend. It's nice knowing them and I kinda missed the already :')

May our path cross again one fine day, my friend :)
HAPPY RAMADHAN.

It's RAMADHAN and I never being this anticipated in celebrating Ramadhan my whole existence.
It's simply fun, exciting and I am looking forward for each day of it. I simply took it as a blessing from dear Allah :)

HAPPY RAMADHAN everyone. Eat and drink reasonably! :)

Ahhh! I just remembered that I wanted to share the story about my flight KL-KK few days ago.
But i think I'll just save it for later.


Later everyone. Good night :)

A letter for my friends.

Dear friends.

I'm tired of getting hurt and ignored by you.
You really think that I forgot about what you have done a few years back aren't you?
Actually, I don't. No matter how close I am to you right now.
No matter how friendly and how nice I act towards you.
Things just won't be the same anymore.

If you were considering me as a friends because all you wanted was taking advantages on me,
you can get lost. I am more delighted, happy, feel good enough to let go of someone like you.

I should posted this with Anonymous as a name.
But I am not the person who gonna keep the hurt feeling deep inside anymore.

Friend who tormented the friendship, who betrayed, who enjoyed hurting other friend,
Get Lost!

Pray For MH370

I was shock when I woke up one morning (you call 10 am morning huh) and discovered that MH370 flight  to Beijing lost just like that. and loooooots of thing/drama is going on. Facts are on and off and some of it was not logic at all.. (esp the Maritime team who lost the yellow thingy that the fishermen found. How ridiculous!)

Also lot of drama from the people who even connect the missing flight with politics and made fun of it.
I was upset when people are even laughing at the incident. Have you even feel/lose people that you love? If your loved ones died in front of you, fine. But have you ever lose someone that you love so much and that your loved one is still in unknown location and cannot be traced? Well...ask me..because I did. And it felt so hard! 1 minutes feels like forever.

I am so sad. I can feel the feeling that the victims(?)'s family feels right now. I even cried for them. It must be hard. Thinking where could our loved ones be right now. Are they safe or what is the worst case scenario that could happen to them? These past few days, every morning when I woke up, I will spontaneously checking my phone and access to the news and internet to check in hope that the flight will be discovered. Even just one single sign is enough. But till now, there's not a single solid discovery (as of yet!).

Dear families of the victims,
Be strong. Things will not always be the same.
In case the worst case scenario did happened, I pray to dear Allah to give you strength and bless you with patience and faith.
But there's still a light of hope for something better right? Insya'Allah..

When Allah wants it to happen. It will.
I, myself, become so frightened of flying since I've (and the other passenger of course!) boarded a plane from KK-KL involved in severe turbulence (which is not a big deal after all. But everyone is still scared) and an emergency announcement was announced. Now, with the missing flight, I am beyond terrified!

Let us pray for MH370.
Come back home MH370! Everyone wants you back! We misses you!

Fear of Flying. How do I get rid of it??

Assalamualaikum reader(s)!

Just reach my University (its early..i know. but duties call!hahaha), and my last semester's result are very dissapointing. What can I say...less study?lol
and since I've come back from my not-so-relaxing-holiday, I got lot of work to do in lab. I even stayed in the lab till late at night..straight until Thursday and join safety process training on Friday and Saturday.fuuuh enough?kekeke

So...let's cut the long story short!
I have this fear that I've kept for a few months now..it's the fear of flying.
I know and understand the principle of the plane and how its works very well..but I'm still scared!!
It's started on that very day where we experienced a worst turbulence and there's an emergency announcement announced (ok!confusing!!). I just thought that I am going to die that day!
But alhamdulillah...Allah gave me the chance to breath until now..until i'm 23 (motif?)...

Since that day, i've been so scared to board on a plane!
But then, all my travelling (at least 4 times per semester) requires flying on a plane (dayum!)
I've tried to calm my nerves down through the whole journey though..and divert my attention to some movies and drama provided. BUT STILL!!!!

Thank God that I manage to get a grip on myself and hold myself together from screaming out loud during the journey (or at least every time there's a turbulence).

How do I get rid of my fear?

The truth to be told.

Today, we live in a generation where they ‘hide the truth and reveal the untruth’

It’s a very depressing situation for me. I am a very honest person. I’ll speak only the truth even if it will hurt the other party.

Well, depend on the situation actually. But I’ll be honest and straightforward in most situation.lol

My friend once told me ‘you are so honest!how cruel…’

That’s why I don’t have many friends maybe…haha

If you’re dark, and you put on a clothes that doesn’t match your skin color, I’ll say it directly that the color didn’t suit you. No hiding. But I’ll add ‘but as long as you like it, I don’t see any problem’ in my sentence tho.haha

So people, can we just be honest and stop hiding the truth?

If I hate something, I’ll just show it with my face, voice and action. There’s no need to be scared to show your emotion. People might hated you for it, but at least people will respect your choice.

I hate the smell of raw fish. Every time I go to the fish market, I’ll tell the people that come with me how much I hated the smell. But still, I love having a meal of fish for my dinner!hehehe

I am an open person. You can read me like an open book. I hadn’t kept much secret about me or my life. There’s no need to stalk me through my Facebook, pictures from my phone or even read my inbox. No need..no need..can you feel how uninteresting I am?

Well..it’s been a while since my last blog post.

Update blog terus post #jiwakacau punya hal kan.kekeke

That’s all about me. Let’s just stop talking about me.

Now tell me about yourself. What do you think of me?

Lol #nyte!

#becoming a very unproductive person!urghhh!!!

It's the tiring part again.

Assalamualaikum uols.

its me again.haha

Its examen week, so study la (konon).
I've finish my 4th paper today, 1 more paper to go on Wed and I'm going home baby!
what can I say....semuaaaaaa subjek sem ni susah gila-gila.
walaupun ada hint, tp...hint la sgt kan...haha

anyway, its the end of my third year here.wohooo...habis sudah third year. next semester I'm gonna be Super Senior.hehehe
and, bila end of tahun 3, maksudnya, its time to change hostel, its time to simpan barang2 dalam stor. penat tau angkut2 barang turun bawah, susun dlm stor, dsbg.kalo sikit-sikit x pa juga...fyi, last year sy ada 6 barang(1 beg beeeeeesar, 5 kotak termasuk printer & 1 baldi). part yg paling hebat ialah, semua barang sy tu berat gila. even baldi pun berat sebab thats where I put my safety boot.kekeke

no..no..serious.sgt berat.
khamis ni mau pegi simpan barang. wish me luck guys! :'(

#bye third year!
#hello LI
#hello next sem
#next semester, its gonna be tougher :)

Temuduga MEDSI

Assalamualaikum peeps.
I realize that there are too many 'hit' on my MEDSI related post.
Those are written few years ago.haha

I just realize that masa-masa macam ni ialah masa student2 lepasan STPM, Matrik and Diploma mencari tempat untuk menyambung study~so I decided to help.kekeke *help la sgt kan*

Here's the link to it :
Soalan bocor MEDSI
MEDSI thingy
PETUA-PETUI TEMUDUGA MEDSI (ni kira macam TIPS ketika temuduga la. tidak semestinya temuduga MEDSI sahaja)

and fortunately, I've failed that Interview. Also failed for Maktab interview. Yes...tiada rezeki jadi seorang pendidik..YET. *masih bercita-cita untuk menjadi pendidik. mungkin akan direalisasikan selepas tamat degree?:P*

And an addition to that SOALAN BOCOR MEDSI, some of my friends was asked to dance(dance the ethnic dance in Sabah) and sang some song(dusun song) by the interviewer. By this time, never-ever complaint! NO!

and some other friend of mine was asked to pretend to be a teacher(of the subject of your choice) and was given a topic based on the subject. You will be given marker pen and a whiteboard. So be wise with the equipment given.

Last but not least, Pray.
You pass or fail, no one cares.
God must have something better for you if you fail, have faith! :)

and you know what, I have a pile of task to be done. night! ;)

Malaysia General Election 2013

Assalamualaikum people :)

5th May 2013

General Election in Malaysia

and it's my first time voting *excited*

I woke up very early, bath and pakai cantek2 *walaupun sebenarnya tidak perlu*

idk why, tp memang excited. Rasa macam saya pula yang bertanding.kekeke

Saluran 3, with nombor siri & jari yang kena calit dgn dakwat kekal yg 'kekal la sangat' kan..

I heard that the GE Ink cost about MYR 5 billion? oh..sangat rugi..

next PRU sila pakai inai saja.haha

Many things happen that day, this party said that the opposite party done this and that and vice versa.

The most famous topic for that day is about the election ink. So I've done some experiment to try the permanent-ness of the Ink. Firsly, with hand soap, nope, it faded but didnt washed away 100%. Then shower cream, nope. next, facial scrub, nope. and last but not least, hand sanitizer(by Dettol..lol). Yup, it faded a lot. But you can still spot the remaining ink(refer to the picture below). After cooking, washing dishes and all, yes, it faded almost 80%, but not completely. I still have some of the ink on my finger until now.haha.... But my big brother, the ink on his finger faded almost 95%...I wonder why..adakah lain SPR lain ink??

There's a lot other hot topic that day. But I don't believe anything unless I saw it with my own eyes or confirmed by the most reliable sources. and I am not on any side of the political party either. atas pagar bah bagus...masa mau pangkah pun sempat lagi ber-'tit tit tembaga'..so immature...I know xD

But actually, I wouldnt be atas pagar if and only if the candidates was more trustworthy. Ini tidak..semua calon sy x suka..memang next PRU sy mau ikut bertanding la *dreaming* ...anyway..I've made up my mind and ready for the next PRU. and I've decided which political party I'm going to support :)

Congrats for the winner tho. Here we go again, leading the normal life. Let's just hope that this time, the gov will be better & fair :)

#Sebelum kita mengubah benda lain, ubahlah diri kita sendiri dulu. Selamat malam :)

My last post.

Few people mistaken my last post as full-of-vain post.haha
Things that I wanted to tell people are simple,

WHEN WE'RE BLESSED & FORTUNATE,
BE GOOD & GRATEFUL. DON'T LOOK DOWN ON UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE.

as simple as that.
night peeps! :D

Mentally(retarded) exhausted.

Greetings peeps!

Have you tried mentally exhausted before?
Yes. It is not a food and does not taste good either.

I am so very tired today!

It might be due to no-stop Test coming. I have a test on last Thursday(the first test), I have another Test on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday this week. Plus, a quiz on Monday evening. pheww~ I am so glad that it all ended(I wish it all ended very well too, aminnn).

Although my face may look calm and cool for the test, inside, I almost crumble and give up. Thank God I didn't. haha

Even my friend was afraid looking at my face in the last class just now. We're having trouble calculating this and that. and our lecturer keep on giving us his answer which is different than our answer. It's frustrating you know!

I am so tired and needed sleep right now, walaupun I've slept more than 7 hours today.haha

There's a burger on my left on keropok lekor on my right, so why don't we go for a movie or 2, right?

When I Google image for 'Mentally Exhausted', this oppa came out. Mucho gusto! :D

#movie!

Don't Be a Permanent Idiot

Kopipes from Aemy Nadira from Anonymous.

This entry is copied from a blog in the comments part:

Anonymous said...Friends, allow me a moment of indulgence to clear the foul stench of stupidity among people. The case in LD is nothing new to us Sabahans. In 90s, they abruptly came to the shore at Semporna and immediately bombed the police stations, then went amuck at the town. 

They're smart people, some came through the sea, rose from mangrove area and lived 4 to 6 months before started to mingle with the locals and married them. The Tausugs in LD now didn't came all at once, instead they came in batches, with helps from their families in the village. Trust me, they have been there at least 2 to 3 months until the groups become complete, then they decide that it's time to wage war.

If you don't understand the rules of engagement, then don't try to be smart by saying the government is weak, soggy, whatsoever. Police would need to move 1st as they're trained as negotiators, while armies are the last resort as they will not spare anyone once commanded.

They need time to ensure all the locals are out of the village and then cut their food and finance sources, hoping the Tausugs will surrender. That's our rules of engagement. We're not barbaric stoic like the American soldiers.  So don't insult or complain about everyone that involves in LD. It's not easy. You don't know what does it feel like to be in a gunfight situation. Those who went in and died knew that they might not come back alive, as it was their vow when inducted to the force. 

So please, learn from history and read more. Make sure your mouth and brain go on the same frequency, or in other harsh words, don't be a permanent idiot.
Thank you for your moment.

#PrayforSabah

Human

Assalamualaikum.

A proper introduction this time.hehehe

Some people are obsessed with being skinny, have a white flawless glowing skin and bla3 so that they will look perfectly-perfect all the time, especially to the people around them.

Certain people wasted hundred or thousand ringgit every month, just for those products that they believed are able to grant their wishes to be what I called 'perfectly-perfect'.

Woman? Oh..of course not. These days, even man, a real man, pun beli juga produk-produk kecantikan ni.

Yang paling popular sekarang ialag Beutskin Essence. Why am I always talking about these stuff anyway?haha

mungkin sebab ramai kawan-kawan yang consume ini barang. Yes.Memang berhasil. Jadi putih, etc2...tapi, it'll cost you a few thousand because the effect can only be seen after using the product for at least 2 months if I'm not mistaken.

What encourage me to write about this kind of stuff is that, I've seen a lot of people bought Slimming Pill. Slimming pill actually works. But only for those under the observation of the doctor and only for those with *cough* diabetes *cough*. Before taking the pills, everything includes allergy, health history & etc2 were taken into consideration.

But, what about those yang beli pil pelangsing di gerai-gerai atau kedai jual jamu? or worst, online?

Si penjual tu pun apalagi kan, mestila jual temberang dia juga. Mau kasi laku jualan.

And last 2 weeks, during the vacation with my family in Tawau, I playfully asked the mak cik yang jual-jual di gerai yang berdekatan dgn tempat saya shopping, 'mak cik, sy mau beli ubat kurus' and the makcik 'shhh' me. She said, 'jangan cakap kuat-kuat' samsil ambil galah & jolok-jolok di upper part gerai dia. When I ask why, she simply answered this, 'ubat-ubat ni tidak melalui kerajaan, kena seludup saja'. What she meants by kerajaan is KKM and of course la taxes.hehe

What surprised me more is that, when she showed the 'ubat kurus' that she hide, one of them was LAMI.

Yes people, go and search about this LAMI pill on Google.hehe

I've read once about Lami. It's poisonous and very-very dangerous. A lot of death was recorded due to consuming LAMI. Jadi jangan la try. If you're that desperate to look kurus, just go and try, but don't regret it later :(  Memang tidakla saya beli kan..

So, untuk menjaga hati makcik tadi, saya belilah gloss yang dia jual. Dari Indon kononnya.hehehe

Enough with ubat kurus thingy.

Ada pula yang sanggup habiskan beribu-riban untuk membeli produk kecantikan wajah. SK-II contohnya?

memang tidak salah la, it's your money, not mine.haha

I'm just talking & mentioning here~

People,*muka bajet-bajet penceramah* and myself.

Why do you have to care about what other people say or MIGHT say about you?

If they called you 'ugly', called them 'super-ugly'. Konfem menangis-nangis tu belari.

Because only orang yang perasan cantik yang sanggup panggil orang lain 'ugly' dan orang yang perasan cantik itu sebenarnya tidak berkeyakinan diri! Hence, bila orang panggil dia 'ugly' dia akan menangis.hahaha

boleh ka buat assumption macam tu? :P

Who are you to judge?
err...I am not encouraging anyone to be gay, emo and athiest, what I'm trying to say here is that,
It doesn't matter who you are, what you are, how you look like, at the end of the day, we are human. We eat, we sleep and we want to love and to be loved.

Just smile and held your head up high! :)

#nite

Facebook Page from Sabah

erk...What I meant by 'from Sabah' bukan page tu datang dari Sabah. Tetapi apa yg cuba saya maksudkan ialah, page itu di-create oleh Sabahan dan di buat khas untuk Sabahans. Tapi sebenarnya I think the real objectives of the pages was to introduce things that happen & the habit that we, Sabahans practice in our everyday life to non-Sabahan. Walaupun sebenarnya banyak yg mengarut, but it was funny anyway.hahaha

Dulu semua gila pasal SABAHAN TROLL. Tapi kenapa sy rasa macam Sabahan Troll kurang sudah publish2 cerita baru a? I just hope that they will create more story yg ohsem2! Support Sabahan Troll! :D

Sekarang, tiba-tiba muncul PERSATUAN JEJAKA BALAH TANGAH SABAH (PERJEBATAS).
Tiba-tiba muncul atau saya yang baru nampak ni page, itu sy x pasti. Saya kan kurang dan jarang usha-usha benda baru..hoho
Just read the name of the page, it obviously means untuk lelaki2 yg ada ber-fesyen rambut belah tengah.
It's not only in Sabah, I know. Zaman dulu-dulu ramai lelaki yg ada fesyen rambut macam tu kan? hehehe
amboi..xmau mengaku lg tu~tau la sekarang ni fesyen rambut semua mau macam Korea-korea kaaaan -_-


Gambar yang saya curi sikit dari page tu.hehehehe


This one was from PERJEBATAS.

This one from Sabahan Troll.

It is where you can learn Sabahans language. Bukan 'You' sahaja, dengan I-I sekali boleh belajar.
Sebab di Sabah banyak sangat-sangat etnik & berlainan bahasa. Ada bahasa yang langggsung sy tidak paham.isk~pasni mau belajar bahasa rajin2!

#Pasni mau belajar Tagalog!
sabihin matuto nang magkasama!

Sabihin? hmmm..teringat all time favourite song, Sabihin by I dunno who...Google..Google...

Mother's cooking is always the best. I never mention about it.

Yes. I never say those words.

It is not because my mom can't cook. She is the champion in cooking arena(chewaaah~arena.hahaha) , especially kuih-muih. It's just that, she rarely cook.

Being 41 years old, substitute the role of the head of the family (when my father pass away),

it's hard for her to stick around at home and do nothing. She got to work hard to feed us, he children.

To ensure we have better life, she decided to go on a hard & rocky way. She's taking the risk to try business. Something that she never even think of before (fyi, my mother is a teacher, dulu la...)

She always said this,

"kalau dulu masa mama masih kecil, semua orang hina keluarga mama miskin, makan pun cukup-cukup. Kadang2 makan ubi. Jadi, kalau boleh, sekarang mama mau tengok anak-anak mama makan lagi bagus dari anak-anak orang lain"

It really touched me when she said those word. When she tell me about her childhood, I feel like killing all the people who have insulted my mom and her family. 

That is the driving force for my mom to enter a new life. Alhamdulillah, Allah is always by our sides. Walaupun HE takes the precious part of our family here and there, yet, I will never said 'Life is UNFAIR'. Despite the bitter-ness thet HE gave us, HE never forget to gave us adequate sweetness that we cannot even mention how sweet it was. Thank You Allah.

Oh...where I was just now? 

Ok. My mom rarely cook because she have a responsibilities that causes her to be away from home, always.

So, my big brother took her place as the cooker. Walaupun sekarang, I think I cook better than him(haha), I am still so thankful that I have a responsible brothers to look after their youngers and take care of each other, walaupun selalu gaduh~haha

In a nutshell, mama saya jarang masak. Tapi bila dia masak, I eat like there's no tomorrow! :D 

Kenal benda ni? Yay! benda paling hot di pasaran. DURIAN CREPE.

Gila bapak mahal harga dia, yg besar2 macam dalam gambar di atas RM10-3 ketul, kalo kecik2 RM10-6 ketul. Saya sudah beli, tapi belum makan. Jap lagi makan. Mahal kan?

I think I need to learn how to make Durian Crepe. nanti boleh ajak satu kampung makan. Dengan syarat, orang-orang kampung kena derma durian la :D:D:D

# Semakin dekat hari OR (Open Ragistration) semakin berdebar-debar rasanya~

Hello Love! D.I.E.T is about 'Did I Eat That'

#Assignment 1 SEM kena hantar rabu ni.
#Assignment CRE kena hantar next week(entah bila)
#Assignment 2 SEM kena hantar Rabu minggu depan.
#Khamis minggu depan ada test Numerical.
#Jumaat minggu depan ada test SEM.
#Isnin depan ada Quiz Unit Operation 2.
#Esok jumpa PA discuss pasal I.Visit.
#Rabu ni Ustad Azhar Idrus datang U.
#Kena buat Mini Project CRE yg susah-kebaboom!


Banyak kan task?
oh..dan ada banyak lagi..cuma malas sy mau kasi list satu-satu.
It's 2 weeks before the concert now. I am so damn nervous(tiba-tiba).hehehe
padahal saya penonton saja.bukannya yg tukang buat show pun.kekeke

Remember my previous-previous-previous post, the one yang saya tulis about me on diet?*ehem* extreme diet? Yes. It was easy to be practiced, however, due to my doctor's advice, I cannot go on with the diet.
Balik U, macam biasa, saiz badan macam bertambah walaupun hari tu baru nai 0.7kg dan minggu lepas turun 1.4 kg. which is a miracle because this semester, saya sangat 'jaga' makan. Tepat pukul 10 pagi, mesti tercegat di cafe, beratur beli makanan dan akan berada di cafe*juga* pada sekitar pukul 5 petang.hahaha

My older brother ask me to coach him on the 'extreme diet' and damn! Bila saya jauh-jauh, bulih pula satu rumah ber-diet kan! Masa sy di rumah, kalo tidak mau makan boleh pula dorang siap senduk nasi untuk saya!grrr! And as expected, my second brother turun 5kg in 8 days. Lepas 8 days tu berat dia static tapi saiz turun-turun-turun la. Jeans dia pun semua longgar-longgar. Tengah prepare untuk convo la tu!!

Yang paling dem sekali ialah bila sorang-sorang call tanya, 'Ko masih diet lagi ka tu?eh..ko gemuk suda la balik?'. Memang sedih bila kena tanya soalan-soalan sensitip macam tu!! Sudahla perut saya sekarang ni memboncet macam org peknen. triple dem! xpa...xpa...nasib baik blok hostel saya ada gym di bawah. So, boleh buat lawatan hari-hari,pastu sukat perut/badan menggunakan baju-baju lama masa body masih hawt & kurus.hahaha

err..that's all for now.kbai!!!
p.s.harap-harap perut ni sempat mengecil sebelum my big brother convo! Buleh jugak potogedik masa tu!hehehe