Happy New Year 2015

Whaaaat? She's still exist?
Yeaaah~I'm alive and kickin' babe!

I know its been a decade or so *exaggerating* since my last post. But I just feel like updating today.
Probably will be an active blogger again? Who knows?hahah

Its been a few minutes *almost an hour?* since I stare at these blank screen of mine.
I don't know and have any idea what to write. Should I reaaally put in my new year resolution again?
ehhh~

But again, tradition is a tradition. Here goes my resolution for 2015.

1. Improve my relationship with Allah the Almighty

But, seriously, I don't know where to start.
Maybe first, I should clean my heart from all the 'diseases'?
Also, I hope I can get up and pray for fajr' more often...
Subuh prayer is the shortest of all prayer time, but it is the hardest. Because you have to
get up as early as 4.30/5 a.m, expose yourself to the morning breeze and touch the cold water.
Sound easy? Well, its hard. I'm ashamed of myself for not being able to get up early!

'When you can wake up and perform Subuh prayer, thats when you finally found the purpose of life'

Its a saying from I don't know who. I believe that it is not about the coldness or sleepiness
that makes us hard to get up for subuh prayer. Instead, its our iman, our heart.

In addition to that, I hope I can lessen my gossip time.
I hate myself because I aaaalways have a segment in my life where I will sat down
with a bunch of people and join them talking bad about someone.
I hate it! Yet, I always did it. Thats! What I want to change in order to improve my relation ship with God. Insya'Allah. With Allah's will and guidance, I will be strong!


2. I want to dress and look presentable

Well, I never give a damn about my appearances. Who even care about that? until one day, I realize that im 23 to be 24.yeah...the fact hurts.lol..anyway! I realize that im 23 to be 24, I met a lot of people, I communicate and have business with lot of people from different statuses and background. Do I look presentable? With a t-shirt, lacy sport shoes, worn-out jeans. Do I LOOK presentable? Absolutely not. Sometimes, some of the professor glare at me and look at me up-down up-down...ishh...malu aku!

So, I've decided, I'll shop for more presentable, office wear look like clothing once I get my salary OK!hahaha


3. I want to be more blunt

As I goes on with the task given, I realize that I am and will receive a lot of harsh and rude word from the superior and client. Hence, saya harus meng-katang-kan hati and be more blunt.
Don't get overly sensitive and took their word and put in in your heart. Because if you did, you'll be done. Lets be blunt!


4. I want to be a good PERSON, DAUGHTER, SISTER, FRIEND

I realize that I am not a good person, daughter, sister nor friend.
A lot of people hated me for I dont know whatever the reason is. My mom was constantly upset
at my rebellious behavior. My big bro and sis was always worried at my well-being and my friend, well, some of the dislike me. hahaha..yup..I know it all dude.

I know that I am not living everyday to impress anyone. But still, since they are a part of my life, I, at least, should make them to feel better and did not hold any bad things about me in their heart.haha

So yeah, lets be a better person.

5. I want to be happy

Its simple. I want to be happy.
I don't want to be constantly held in these frightened, scared, worried and insecure feeling.
It only makes me feel less alive. I want to be happy!


Well, I have a lot of resolution for the new year actually. But I think 5 will do. No one cares anyway.lol

I just hope that the new year will bring more joy, prosperity and success to these lovely country of mine though. Lot of bad things happened in 2014. Lost, shot and crashed plane. Nasty flood that affect more than 100k people. It hurts to see all of that.

Let's pray that 2015 will be a better year for us, you, me, them, our country. Amen.

Come back home. Baby come back home!

Assalamualaikum.

Yes, as usual. I am back after being on hiatus for several week (is it a month or a few month this time? I hope its not!). and yes I have a lot of stories in store.

I've been busy with this lil-oh-not-so-secret biz that I got myself involved in.
and busy with the interviews, busy with documents handling (for my mom's company), busy with the chores, busy managing the household, this and that. In a nutshell, my energy almost drain and left empty at the end of the day. But still, its worth it.

My families being worried too much about me going to a far place and started working.
What I can say is that, almost 90% of them encourage me to further my study. It is also the first time in my life that my family set a goal for me too! and I was kind of anticipated too! and I will apply to continue my study to satisfy everyone too! (too many 'too. oh well~)

Yes, it is the very first time that my family set a goal for me.
Before this, they never asked me to get straight A's in any exam. To nail anything or accomplish anything..it's kind of funny yet give me some new vibe when they finally asked me to do something.haha
ok..I know it is not funny.

Remember about my 'fear of flying' things that I mentioned in each and every one of my previous post?
Yeah right. I am scary shit of flying right now. I have a bit of fear before the MH370 cases because of the little incident occurred during the flight. Also probably because I tried to understand the mechanical of the plane, I studied aviation a bit, history of aviation and also I learnt about the construction material of the plane. I always imagine a weird stuff though. So I should probably stop my wild imagination.
Then, come the MH17 cases. Then some few other airlines cases too. I became terrified and scared to fly now! I should probably cancel the 'Willing to travel.' in my resume too.haha

Gaza.
The war in Gaza is getting worse. The only hope that is left is Allah the Almighty.
May HE give protection, strength, iman, patient and all the good thing to the people in Gaza, Amen.

Last but not least, my mother became so very hilarious this past few months(or years..or forever).
She said she didn't want me to work at a far away place. and thet she will treat me something that I can't decline if I stay here. 'If you want to work far away from Ranau, go and get marry fast. So that I didn't have to worry anything about you, Go get married!' (thats what she said when its translated from Dusun to English). I was like... shocked, loss of words and my mouth was slightly apart trying to find the right word and tried my very best to register her order. So I play along and asked her to find a candidate instead.

Mom can get so scary sometimes you know.

Lets keep the other story and go to sleep now k.
Good night! :D

Pray For MH370

I was shock when I woke up one morning (you call 10 am morning huh) and discovered that MH370 flight  to Beijing lost just like that. and loooooots of thing/drama is going on. Facts are on and off and some of it was not logic at all.. (esp the Maritime team who lost the yellow thingy that the fishermen found. How ridiculous!)

Also lot of drama from the people who even connect the missing flight with politics and made fun of it.
I was upset when people are even laughing at the incident. Have you even feel/lose people that you love? If your loved ones died in front of you, fine. But have you ever lose someone that you love so much and that your loved one is still in unknown location and cannot be traced? Well...ask me..because I did. And it felt so hard! 1 minutes feels like forever.

I am so sad. I can feel the feeling that the victims(?)'s family feels right now. I even cried for them. It must be hard. Thinking where could our loved ones be right now. Are they safe or what is the worst case scenario that could happen to them? These past few days, every morning when I woke up, I will spontaneously checking my phone and access to the news and internet to check in hope that the flight will be discovered. Even just one single sign is enough. But till now, there's not a single solid discovery (as of yet!).

Dear families of the victims,
Be strong. Things will not always be the same.
In case the worst case scenario did happened, I pray to dear Allah to give you strength and bless you with patience and faith.
But there's still a light of hope for something better right? Insya'Allah..

When Allah wants it to happen. It will.
I, myself, become so frightened of flying since I've (and the other passenger of course!) boarded a plane from KK-KL involved in severe turbulence (which is not a big deal after all. But everyone is still scared) and an emergency announcement was announced. Now, with the missing flight, I am beyond terrified!

Let us pray for MH370.
Come back home MH370! Everyone wants you back! We misses you!

Fear of Flying. How do I get rid of it??

Assalamualaikum reader(s)!

Just reach my University (its early..i know. but duties call!hahaha), and my last semester's result are very dissapointing. What can I say...less study?lol
and since I've come back from my not-so-relaxing-holiday, I got lot of work to do in lab. I even stayed in the lab till late at night..straight until Thursday and join safety process training on Friday and Saturday.fuuuh enough?kekeke

So...let's cut the long story short!
I have this fear that I've kept for a few months now..it's the fear of flying.
I know and understand the principle of the plane and how its works very well..but I'm still scared!!
It's started on that very day where we experienced a worst turbulence and there's an emergency announcement announced (ok!confusing!!). I just thought that I am going to die that day!
But alhamdulillah...Allah gave me the chance to breath until now..until i'm 23 (motif?)...

Since that day, i've been so scared to board on a plane!
But then, all my travelling (at least 4 times per semester) requires flying on a plane (dayum!)
I've tried to calm my nerves down through the whole journey though..and divert my attention to some movies and drama provided. BUT STILL!!!!

Thank God that I manage to get a grip on myself and hold myself together from screaming out loud during the journey (or at least every time there's a turbulence).

How do I get rid of my fear?

Malindo Air Malaysia

Assalamualaikum peeps.

Just got back from Sabah below the wind and a lot of project, assignment, task, presentation(and maybe quiz & test) are waiting for me. yippie! I've read a famous blogger's blog about Malindo Air, where he only stated the best about Malindo, and I feel kinda cheated.haha (I'll continue about this later. It's not a VERY BIG deal anyway)

So I've decided to try Malindo, depart from KK to KL. I purchased the tickets online, since there's only 3 flight to KL can be choose, I decided to take the earliest flight, which is 11 a.m (stated online). I reached the airport(it depart from KKIA(T1) from KK and landed at KLIA) at 10.05a.m and rushing for check-in. 

When I asked the pacik tukang scan beg about my bag, he said the gate was closed. Ok, acceptable. The only thing that is unacceptable is that, there's a poster in front of the counter, it stated that luggage must be checked-in 3 HOURS BEFORE DEPARTURE??? o.O

So I proceed to the check-in counter to get my boarding pass since I can just bring my bag as hand carry items when the Miss at the counter inform me that the gate has closed and I cannot take the flight. I still have 40mins before 11a.m at that time. When I tell her that my flight was at 11a.m(according to the e-ticket that), she inform me that Malindo DID NOT HAVE ANY FLIGHT FROM KK-KL AT 11A.M they only have a flight at 10.30 A.M for morning..  and I was like, 'so, apa la ni kena tulis di itinerary?' and her face changed when she take a look at my itinerary and contact someone via walkie talkie. So I was allowed to go on-board. Thanks kepada macik yg bagi laluan kepada sy untuk scan hand luggage yg sy bawa, juga kepada pacik2 & abg2 sekuriti yg tidak tahan2 sy dan minta macam2.hehehe

Upon my arrival at the gate where I was supposed to board the plane, there are still a lot of people Q-ing outside. and it's 8 minutes past 10.30 am(the time where the plane was supposed to depart) that time. and the services of ripping(hantam ja ba ayat) the passenger's tickets are quite lousy I can say. Some of the pacik2 pun sampai marah2 and are having a bad mood due to their service & unclear announcement.

But inside the plane, 

 We can do this. We can simply connect our USB to the tablets provided. The tablets are more touch sensitive than the one in Malaysia Airlines. Which is good, but...please refer below.

Pastu dalam plane pun, pramugari semua baik2 dan peramah. Kalo lelaki lagi la suka, suda la pramugari-pramugari dia lawa-lawa pastu pakai pun siksi-siksi belaka.kekeke

BEST :
1- Spacious. Jarak antara kerusi sgt luas berbanding airlines di Malaysia yang lain. This one is the best!
2- F.A semua peramah & baik. Hospitality is number 1 you know!hehehe
3- Free food. Sandwich and mineral water. Sila berterima kasih sebab kena bagi free food. suda la tiket murah gila :)
4- Comfortable seats.

NOT BEST :
1- Lousy management before boarding into the plane.
2- I really have a big problem about the 'LUGGAGE CHECK-IN 3 HOURS BEFORE DEPARTURE' thingy. Sometimes, all you want is not a cheap price, sometimes, it's all about keselesaan.
3- Please, if your flight was at 10.30, change the time in your flight schedule online. It'll confuse people :-/
4- Food. I know it's free. I don't actually mind it, THIS TIME. because I am not that hungry. But it'll be better if the airline provide(or sell) a variety of food selection.
5- Limited entertainment selection. There's only like 14 movies in there if I'm not mistaken? :-/

The above is my opinion about Malindo Air. It is cheap, but cheap is not everything. and I know it's new. So bear with it for a while.hehe

I might still fly with Malindo.. but bak kata Yunalis Zarai (Yuna), I choose product that I trust...
So I prefer Malaysia Airlines, mahal tapi boleh komplen banyak-banyak dan komplen itu dilayan walaupun ada sesetengah worker yg marah-marah atau poirodus mau melayan. But hel* I care.kekeke

p.s.I was actually watching Malindo logo for a long time during the journey and find it funny. Lion with a wing. how cute! :P