Depressed and Disappointed

Someone was messing with my mental health lately.
Its a common thing for me, but never came from someone I've considered a good friend.
Why? Just why?

Why would you talk to me like that, with the smirk and all.
I really hate it. The accusation, restriction, the cold and distant feeling.
I know I shouldn't feel like this toward you, I shouldn't resent you because you're a friend.

But I am too, your friend.
So you shouldn't do that to me in the first place!
I might blurt my heart out one day.
Cause I'm just someone who cannot really hold my thoughts.
But considering it'll affect people around me, I will try my very best to control my mouth.
Maybe setup a distant and some boundaries between me and you would be good too.

#resentment #disappointment #Iizsed

#movingon #day11

Its been 11 days since I've got my heart broke.lol
and it hurts a lot the first week. But I managed to get a hold of myself.
Finally, last sunday, I've decided to let it all go and be free.

Monday, when he called, I don't feel anything superior like before anymore.
I am happier and felt free that he didn't affect me that much anymore.
Tuesday, which is today, about 20% of the old feelings came back.
But I refuse to accept the fact.

I am stronger than this.
Never again I will fall for you.
Never again I will hold any romantic feelings towards you.
Because every time the old feeling came creeping back inside of me, you always decided to be a jerk and do something that would eventually hurt me.

I guess, I am more free than before. From the feeling, your shadow and you.
So, I want to be happier and forgot about you as much as I can.
Lets just stay as friend then ^_^

Now, I want to focus on my study and fall in love with my work.
Cheers and good luck to me! :D

#movingonday11
#counting

Finally GRADUATED and Transformer: Age of Extinction. HAPPY RAMADHAN ^_^

Assalamualaikum....

well..since its been so long since my last update, I have to combine all the main topic into one sentences (refer: post title).

TRANSFORMER: AGE OF EXTINCTION

it's a one hell of a movie. 3 hours long. and its worth it!!!
OMG! I can actually watch it again 4-5 times. The movie was the best and fascinating. its simply wonderful.
I know its sounds like im exaggerating but IT IS worth the few ringgit malaysia and the 3 hours of your day.
I just Love the movie. Highly recommended *thumbs up*


GRADUATED.

There's these subject that have become my enemy since last semester and I repeat the paper.
It is even harder than my final year project (probably because I hate maths. Despite all the subject in my overall coursework are related to maths.lol), and I thought that I'm gonna lose to the subject again and unable to graduate from my Bachelor Degree. Fortunately, ALHAMDULILLAH, I have met my lecturer personally to asked for my grade, and yes, I passed it! Alhamdulillah once again, I can finally announce that I am going to GRADUATE from my 4 years long of Chemical Engineering course. and currently, I am jobless. lol

I was only left with a few option by madam besar a.k.a my mum.
After a lot of consideration and reflection made, I finally decided to take thing slowly and rest for a while. I mean, managing the household and such. It is actually tiring (physically, emotionally and mentally) but, this is a part of learning. Let's embrace it. (fyi, it is easier to do some Calculus calculation than managing the household. I warned you!)

and yes. It is sad thinking about finish studying and it comes to me that I am not going to go back to that place anymore. Even if I go back, it won't be the same anymore since I've said goodbye(s) to all my precious friend. It's nice knowing them and I kinda missed the already :')

May our path cross again one fine day, my friend :)
HAPPY RAMADHAN.

It's RAMADHAN and I never being this anticipated in celebrating Ramadhan my whole existence.
It's simply fun, exciting and I am looking forward for each day of it. I simply took it as a blessing from dear Allah :)

HAPPY RAMADHAN everyone. Eat and drink reasonably! :)

Ahhh! I just remembered that I wanted to share the story about my flight KL-KK few days ago.
But i think I'll just save it for later.


Later everyone. Good night :)

A letter for my friends.

Dear friends.

I'm tired of getting hurt and ignored by you.
You really think that I forgot about what you have done a few years back aren't you?
Actually, I don't. No matter how close I am to you right now.
No matter how friendly and how nice I act towards you.
Things just won't be the same anymore.

If you were considering me as a friends because all you wanted was taking advantages on me,
you can get lost. I am more delighted, happy, feel good enough to let go of someone like you.

I should posted this with Anonymous as a name.
But I am not the person who gonna keep the hurt feeling deep inside anymore.

Friend who tormented the friendship, who betrayed, who enjoyed hurting other friend,
Get Lost!